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Sunday, May 8th, 2005
10:10 pm	I wanna be the surgeon that cuts you open, that fixes all of life's mistakes. I wanna be the house that you were raised in; the only place that you feel safe. I wanna be a shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean. I know I'm just the weather against your window as you sleep through a winter's dream. " just wish there was so much more to this about me and you" Current Music: Butch Walker (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
10:55 pm	I can't take my fucking eyes off of you. Current Music: Coheed (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
10:19 pm	Being home makes me realize how much I miss those nights under the stars in the middle of the ocean. I wish I never had to leave all because I had to come home and deal with fucking shit. Why is it that every one around me loves someone and I have no one? There's nothing. Current Music: Coldplay (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
11:12 pm	I'm singing a song explaining the everlasting love I have for you, but it's weird how I don't even know your name, or your age, where you're from, what you look like, how you sound, how you taste; love song for no one. Sexiness.... it's all about love. Current Music: jason mraz (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
11:22 pm	This is far less than amusing, far less than sad, far less than depressing, far less than unsettling, far less than down the road; how I wish I could be everything you want, wanted, need, needed, have, had, love, loved, miss, missed... just let me under your skin. I long to breathe you. Current Music: Aslyn (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
8:33 pm	For some reason, being around you feels just like it used to be, except for the fact that I want to be close to you. Every time you come near me, every time I feel the warmth of you next to me, makes me feel like I need to kiss you, like I belong to you. Only that I can't kiss you, that I can't belong to you... that I can't be near you. Save your love for another... I'll bleed until you regain your strength... I will wait. Current Music: Rilo Kiley (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
9:26 pm	sick, depressed, confused, pissed off, sad. what the fuck did I do to deserve this? bullshit... that's what I call it all. Someone find me a hot motherfucker. Current Mood: fuck off Current Music: rilo kiley (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
11:18 pm	I am happy that I am doubtful. You keep me guessing. Word. Current Music: The Faint (Comment on this)
Monday, February 28th, 2005
10:35 pm	I just watched Garden State again. It made me miss you. I miss you. I fucking miss you. Current Music: Jimmy Eat World (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
10:49 pm	Anything to hold this blood. Your eyes were shining golden tonight. I almost happily cried at the mere fact that we crashed every one else's dreams to make ours believable. I don't care for a thing as long as you rest your head upon my shoulder and tell me how you don't want me to leave. It's almost like a 7th Heaven episode. We're so innocent. Yet, we're so badass, like The Simple Life. Oh, won't you kiss me? Anything to hold this blood. Current Music: Elliot Smith (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
11:05 pm	Oh and it's oh so, so, so sad....don't act like you care when you don't give a shit. You're the better of it. Current Music: Deathcab (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
11:09 pm	Tonight I got out of work early. For the first time in a while, I hung out with myself. I went to Empress and got some coffee. If I hadn't called, I wouldn't have sat alone watching the day turn into night. I would've left a lot early than I had planned on staying.... wait, I did that already. Current Music: Eisley (Comment on this)
Monday, February 7th, 2005
10:32 pm	Wow... it really sucks that I forgot that people could actually read this.. fuck. im embarrassed..... and plus i don't even think i spelt that word right. (Comment on this)
10:28 pm	I'm going to pick up the Eisley full length tomorrow night. I'm excited for that... now there's something to smile about. Current Music: Deathcab (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
1:27 pm	I'm getting over the fact that I fucked up. Current Music: Keane (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
11:20 pm	I'm trying to figure out this piece of shit funk that I've been in lately. I have so many things going on in my head. You're fucking always in my head, and I haven't seen you in over a year. Is that bad? Yeah, it is because I'm a fuck up and you're perfect. That's the way it is. That's the way it always has been. How come I still smile when I think about the things you used to do? How come I still laugh at the funny things you used to say? It's funny how we let go so long ago, but I could still remember everything so well. Call me an asshole, or just call me what you will...better yet, just call me. But now I'm asking for too much. I'm wanting it all, and yet I deserve nothing from you. "Dumb, dumb stupid luck. A technicality, but you will always be ahead of me. Tell me why I had to practice on you. Tell me why I had to practice on your heart"....I sware, we were so comfortable, but I made it hurt. I made things bad.... fuck, I've done it again. ....My hands are shaking and I feel as if I talk to you every day. I feel like you've always been here, and even if you hate me, even if you don't want to know me, I'll toast to that feeling that you left me with; the feeling of knowing that at some point we had something.... I'm in love with that diesel jeans-wearing feeling and I can't do a fucking thing about it. Current Music: Get Up Kids (6 Comments |Comment on this)
10:50 pm	You Need Me Like a Bad Habit Holy shit, I miss that kiss. Current Music: Mae (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
11:57 pm	you know who you are, but you don't know i think about you.... every day fuck what am i, an asshole? Current Music: midtown (Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
11:41 pm	I don't care what you do to me. Just make sure you hurt me in the end. Current Music: Alladin Theme Songs (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
2:44 pm	Drunk and no John Mayer, but hey, I'm home. Current Music: Something Corporate (Comment on this)