This is the craze only we can bestow...

Mon, 09 May 2005 02:13:11 GMT

I wanna be the surgeon that cuts you open, that fixes all of life's mistakes. I wanna be the house that you were raised in; the only place that you feel safe. I wanna be a shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean. I know I'm just the weather against your window as you sleep through a winter's dream.

" just wish there was so much more to this about me and you"

Thu, 05 May 2005 02:55:37 GMT

I can't take my fucking eyes off of you.

Mon, 02 May 2005 02:20:57 GMT

Being home makes me realize how much I miss those nights under the stars in the middle of the ocean. I wish I never had to leave all because I had to come home and deal with fucking shit.

Why is it that every one around me loves someone and I have no one?

There's nothing.

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 03:15:24 GMT

I'm singing a song explaining the everlasting love I have for you, but it's weird how I don't even know your name, or your age, where you're from, what you look like, how you sound, how you taste; love song for no one.

Sexiness.... it's all about love.

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 03:24:25 GMT

This is far less than amusing, far less than sad, far less than depressing, far less than unsettling, far less than down the road; how I wish I could be everything you want, wanted, need, needed, have, had, love, loved, miss, missed... just let me under your skin.

I long to breathe you.

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 01:35:24 GMT

For some reason, being around you feels just like it used to be, except for the fact that I want to be close to you. Every time you come near me, every time I feel the warmth of you next to me, makes me feel like I need to kiss you, like I belong to you. Only that I can't kiss you, that I can't belong to you... that I can't be near you.

Save your love for another... I'll bleed until you regain your strength... I will wait.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 02:27:32 GMT

sick, depressed, confused, pissed off, sad.

what the fuck did I do to deserve this?

bullshit... that's what I call it all.

Someone find me a hot motherfucker.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 04:19:07 GMT

I am happy that I am doubtful. You keep me guessing.

Word.

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 03:36:25 GMT

I just watched Garden State again. It made me miss you. I miss you. I fucking miss you.

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 03:53:08 GMT

Anything to hold this blood.

Your eyes were shining golden tonight. I almost happily cried at the mere fact that we crashed every one else's dreams to make ours believable.

I don't care for a thing as long as you rest your head upon my shoulder and tell me how you don't want me to leave. It's almost like a 7th Heaven episode. We're so innocent. Yet, we're so badass, like The Simple Life.

Oh, won't you kiss me?

Anything to hold this blood.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 04:07:29 GMT

Oh and it's oh so, so, so sad....don't act like you care when you don't give a shit.

You're the better of it.

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 04:11:55 GMT

Tonight I got out of work early. For the first time in a while, I hung out with myself. I went to Empress and got some coffee. If I hadn't called, I wouldn't have sat alone watching the day turn into night. I would've left a lot early than I had planned on staying.... wait, I did that already.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 03:34:06 GMT

Wow... it really sucks that I forgot that people could actually read this.. fuck. im embarrassed..... and plus i don't even think i spelt that word right.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 03:29:37 GMT

I'm going to pick up the Eisley full length tomorrow night. I'm excited for that... now there's something to smile about.

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 18:28:03 GMT

I'm getting over the fact that I fucked up.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 04:28:04 GMT

I'm trying to figure out this piece of shit funk that I've been in lately. I have so many things going on in my head. You're fucking always in my head, and I haven't seen you in over a year. Is that bad? Yeah, it is because I'm a fuck up and you're perfect. That's the way it is. That's the way it always has been. How come I still smile when I think about the things you used to do? How come I still laugh at the funny things you used to say? It's funny how we let go so long ago, but I could still remember everything so well. Call me an asshole, or just call me what you will...better yet, just call me. But now I'm asking for too much. I'm wanting it all, and yet I deserve nothing from you. "Dumb, dumb stupid luck. A technicality, but you will always be ahead of me. Tell me why I had to practice on you. Tell me why I had to practice on your heart"....I sware, we were so comfortable, but I made it hurt. I made things bad.... fuck, I've done it again.

....My hands are shaking and I feel as if I talk to you every day. I feel like you've always been here, and even if you hate me, even if you don't want to know me, I'll toast to that feeling that you left me with; the feeling of knowing that at some point we had something....

I'm in love with that diesel jeans-wearing feeling and I can't do a fucking thing about it.

You Need Me Like a Bad Habit

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 03:51:32 GMT

Holy shit, I miss that kiss.

you know who you are, but you don't know i think about you.... every day

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 04:59:38 GMT

fuck

what am i, an asshole?

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 04:41:56 GMT

I don't care what you do to me. Just make sure you hurt me in the end.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 19:44:42 GMT

Drunk and no John Mayer, but hey, I'm home.

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 15:18:27 GMT

Maybe it's you that keeps me up at night. Maybe it's you who I can't stand. Maybe it's you who I keep telling myself I hate. I don't know, but there's someone in my mind who I keep talking shit about. It's definitley you, and things better change.

I'm going to look for John Mayer. I'll be back Sunday.

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 06:24:04 GMT

Everything I thought I knew of you is wrong. I don't believe in believing in us anymore. Too bad after three years of nonsense we haven't accomplished anything.

I'm single. My mouth tastes of blood and rum.